the little things

Today was a rather usual day... there were things that were exciting and some that were not... but i think the biggest surprise of the day just came a few moments ago as i read a friend's blog who is also doing this experiment... part of doing this whole thing has brought up a number of questions in my head about doubts i have about myself and my faith and really just putting myself out there... and just reading through his comments made me realize, i'm not the only one questioning these things, feeling kinda exposed and vunerable... he hit a point that i can really identify with and that is, what if God allows me to feel more pain through this than happiness? part of me wants to hold back... but really then i am only holding myself back from God, the very Person i am desiring a deeper relationship with... i think its funny sometimes how well the word 'relationship' describes how we are to relate to Jesus... there are ups and downs, confusion, but most of all there is love that always draws us back... so i hope through the next 30 days and counting, i can lean on the knowledge that His love will never leave me, no matter what i am experencing...